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Pastelmemer (aka pastelroswell, aka pride-flags on deviantart) was a former mod of pride-flags-for-us. A prolific flagmaker and term coiner, they are responsible for "about half the terms on mogai archive, including but not limited to lovegender and gendercute…if you come across any uncredited flags from 2014-2015, or possibly current as it seems they are once again active in that community, it’s safe to assumed it was made by Roswell."
Additionally, pastememer has created hundreds of flags for various MOGAI terms coined by others via their pride-flags deviant-art page.| They also coined the terms MIN [male-in-nature], FIN [female-in-nature], and NIN [nonbinary-in-nature], which are widely used to describe MOGAI "genders".
They are allegedly responsible for the grooming and sexual coercion of a 14-year-old while a senior in high school and allegedly attempted to assist in the intimidation (or murder) of their father.
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Allegations against Pastelmemer
All accusations against pastelmemer have not been tried or proven in a court of law (as far as this wiki is aware). They should be presumed innocent until proven guilty.
According to Nat, the current admin of Pride-Flags-For-Us (who remembers a lot of events and details about the mods of pffu at its height),
"Roswell coined about half the terms on mogai archive, including but not limited to lovegender and gendercute…if you come across any uncredited flags from 2014-2015, or possibly current as it seems they are once again active in that community, it’s safe to assumed it was made by Roswell."
[They] "(remade at pastel///roswell for but is still pastelmemer on deviantart- I am only saying this for blocking/safety purposes for minors, do not harass them) is now a mod at the pride-flags deviantart, and TW: [allegedly] coerced and groomed a 14 year old freshman while they were an adult in high school along with their boyfriend at the time… The testimony from their victim from high school is archived on a wesbite with a bad reputation and is known for it’s transphobia(however it is extremely anti-censorship, which is why so many things are archived there) so I’ll only link it if someone asks off anon so I can respond privately(I fear that linking it here will result in people using it to upset themselves/emotional self harm, and I will not provide links to minors or people I suspect are minors).
-Nat on PPFU
The reason pride-flags-for-us provided no links was concrete. This wiki will continue pride-flags-for-us’s “no linking” policy in this one rare instance, because a lot of the content is disturbing in the extreme, and I refuse to share (or even click on) the archive links for some of it.
Allegations of violence against disabled father
One thing on the aforementioned archive site is a post from the facebook of pastelmemer’s epileptic father (who appears to have raised them) about how they (or possibly they and their boyfriend) tried to kill him by strangulation. The father's name and picture have been deleted.
Testimonial of alleged grooming/coercion victim
As this testimonial contains some descriptions that readers might find upsetting, it is contained within a collapsible block. None of it is visually graphic.
While likely not watertight proof itself (it was written several years after it happened, and most receipts have been lost), it’s pretty much in line with the stuff publicly known about pastelmemer via their deviant-art, their furaffinity likes, etc. It is also very concerning and has never been properly addressed, despite being known for several years
Trigger Warnings for rape/pedophilia/abuse/necrophilia/zoophilia
Testimonial (Part 1)
** Testimonial (Part 2)**
“i’m writing once again on ray. i understand and apologize for any shortcomings of my previous testimony, as i was quickly trying to compile a list of cringey and shitty things i remembered about him, regardless of their severity, mainly to further reinforce that he’s an inconsistent, delusional, manipulative narcissist. i know my case sounds weak due to lack of hard evidence and i understand that i possibly come off as untrustworthy since i’ve had so much difficulty finding any explicit evidence. i’ve spent the past few weeks trying to find as much evidence as possible, but this all happened nearly three years ago, back when i had a completely different phone and laptop. i managed to repair my old laptop and dig into my old skype logs, but had no luck as i had factory reset the computer in between the time period of our messages and when i stopped using the computer. i have no back-ups of my text messages or any useful information on my computer. i’ve tried to search through ray’s blog as much as possible, but i know for a fact that he’s deleted multiple things, making it difficult to search for all the dirt he’s guilty of. we used to follow each other on tumblr back when we “dated”, but my blog from that time period was deactivated, rendering it useless to try and search through. despite all of this, i managed to find some links that help support some of the claims i’ve made.
link excluded for reasons that will immediately become obvious//
i was iffy about whether or not i should include this one (since my face is in it), but it has the most support i could find. the post has a selfie of me holding ray’s vibrator, as well as him mentioning that it was his and calling me “child” but still being okay with the whole thing. i’m not gonna go into details, but it’s not hard to imagine what was done with that.
([Another archive link that I excluded] here’s proof that he publicly promoted his nsfw blog, btw)
i applaud site user// screenshotting/archiving, since some of his archived materials include all sorts of sketchy shit that’s accumulated across ray’s social media platforms.
as for further elaboration on the pedophilia, i can only provide so much since nothing is really archived/out there anymore since my relationship with ray and his ex-boyfriend did not involve much online/text communication. i also knew nothing about ray’s background during our relationship. if he ever gets around to actually admitting he slept with me when i was 14, he’ll probably defend it by saying it was only casual sex or our relationship was “queerplatonic” or some asinine bs of the sort. i’d also like to clarify i originally did not have any desire to be friends with ray; he advanced on me. the day we met was on my first day of highschool, and i was wearing eridan’s symbol because i was a stupid kid. some trashy looking white kid with dreads complimented my shirt and i didn’t know how to respond because of their appearance. while i don’t remember what event actually led us to becoming friends, i do know that we really talked for the first time in the gsa (he was vice president). it wasn’t long after that when he began to invite me over his house and started talking about pretty personal things i didn’t need to know about. i remember going to his house and talking to his bf for the first time- they were both really touchy and inappropriate in their own “charming” ways. i saw his boyfriends tits (trans) the first time i went to their house just because he felt like pulling them out to show me how large they were. i can’t remember a single visit where either one of them didn’t try making some sort of move on me. while i thought i liked them both as friends, i wasn’t exactly sure if i wanted to date them. i don’t remember ever bringing up the aspect of dating myself to them, however, ray had told me his boyfriend had a crush on me and welcomed me into their sex life. ray told me that his boyfriend agreed that he was okay with having casual sex with me (i.e. a threeway between us). only a few months into my twisted friendship with ray i had sex with him and his boyfriend twice. it stopped after the second time because ray was uncomfortable with my silent/static state during the ordeal. i saw nothing wrong with any of this at the time, but i still recall feeling pretty uncomfortable during the fucking. somewhere in the mix of this we had a date to a nearby outdoor mall.. which i recall primarily because ray masturbated under a dinner table while we were there. the day before the date they also introduced me to weed, with ray’s boyfriend being quite fond of shotgunning with me. i also remember that i accidentally left my wallet at his house after the date that still had some cash in it. i asked ray about it and he never gave me a solid answer. the whole mess started to die down once the relationship with ray and his bf ended because bf was being “abusive” (in hospital for psychosis and got mad at bf for fucking someone without his permission WHILE HE WAS HOSPITALIZED) and ray latched himself onto a new host that was once his best friend (they also made sexual innuendos in public, including at school. they only dated for a few months and broke up for whatever reason and don’t talk anymore.) after ray turned 18 he told me the url of his nsfw blog and frequently openly bragged about his sex life, even though he asked me not to talk about mines because it made him “uncomfortable”. i even remember back when he bragged about posting a craigslist personal and how he was gonna meet some random stranger after school to fuck (never happened). aside from the creepy pedophilia, he was really just all around fucking crazy as shit. he was always super attached to otherkin stuff and would insist that he was a fox. he would also nonstop talk about annoying mogai stuff, including presentations in the gsa about said mogai stuff (even more ironic, our president was a cishet ace girl). he didn’t really seem to have any sort of identity outside of his mental problems, which seemed extremely unhealthy and counterproductive if he wanted to provide for himself. i don’t know how on earth he got his first/only job at lush, but it only lasted a few months before he was fired and never tried looking for a job again. he never tried doing anything that your typical teenager does to prepare for adulthood and miraculously got to graduate high school (in spite of skipping all the time because his “flares” were too bad or some shit, me and my mom are both functional human beings that also have chronic inflammatory issues). after high school he got disability checks pretty quick, instantly eliminating any sort of effort he had ever put forward to be a meaningful member of society. at some point he broke up with his boyfriend for a new one that he stayed with for a year or so that he recently “broke up” with. i can confirm he literally talks to no one in real life except for his family at home and his therapist. he never leaves home either, sitting around all day in his room masturbating and making new mogai flags.
and as for the weird kinks, i have no clue what he’s genuinely into. i was talking to him about kinks one day and said i was into bestiality to test and see what he would say, knowing that he’s deprived. of course he reacted positively, even telling me he thinks that some dogs are hot. he also told me about a friend that was into necrophilia because it made her feel powerful. he was also really big on being called slurs in bed, funnily enough. he tries to project a public image that shows a vicious hatred of pedophiles and zoophiles, but i want more people to know the truth. he doesn’t deserve the comfort of a facade to hide under and i’ll do everything in my power make sure he never feels completely safe again.
i wouldn’t be so bitter about this if ray had at least sort of tried to make himself a better person than he was back when i knew him, but he only seemed to have got worse since high school ended. he now has a gofundme to help him out of his “abusive” situation, despite never really complaining much about his current situation back when i knew him (nothing changed in his household, fyi). if anything, i feel like his mother is a bit at fault because she’s serving as his enabler and allows him to live a lazy ass degenerate lifestyle instead of forcing him out on his own. i know his mother has her own issues (otherwise ray wouldn’t be so fucked in the head) but there are plenty of people out there with god awful parents that are still fully independent. he’s going down a steep slope and refuses any sort of help or advice, insisting that he has a wonderful life and loves himself. i genuinely cannot imagine where he’ll be in the next few decades, especially after his mother is unable to provide for him anymore. everyone he knows that isn’t his family or therapist eventually leaves him because he’s a mentally unstable sociopath.”
